Friday, January 7, 2011

The Endoscopy

Imagine your stomach sliding up into your esophagus as you move or sit or lie down. It sounds pretty awful huh? It sits there bunched up making it difficult to breath and causes heartburn. It is also brutally painful at times. This is what the endoscopy exam discovered.
The pictures that were taken also revealed striation marks in a couple of different places confirming stomach ulcers. It does not surprise me that there would be ulcers; after 2-1/2 years of worry and stress, why wouldn't there be? I can see it in the eyes and hear it with every groan.
There is also the acid reflux. The thing that led us here. At the bottom of the esophagus where this whole mess takes place, the stomach acid splashes up into the esophagus and has done some damage to the tissue. A biopsy is taken to check for cancer. We will now have to wait for almost a week for the results.
My doctor explains these things to us and draws diagrams. He looks me over and says, "You look real good."
Lois looks up from the hospital bed she is in and says, "He's doing all right." Only today he isn't my doctor and I am not his patient; Lois is.

                                                -January 6, 2011


  1. Powerful.
    All the million ways we can hurt. All the million ways we can look pain in the face and stare it down and say, "I live, fucker."

    Holding you and Lois in my thoughts.

  2. Ugh. Good wishes to Lois. Hopefully they will be able to bring about some healing and the damage will be found to be limited to erosion.

  3. I'm so sorry Beaux, this is so scary...I pray that the biopsy comes out clean and that pain relief and healing will come quickly for your dear Lois. Holding you and your precious family in my heart in prayer.

  4. Our lives seem to be parallel in many ways... While my husband was awaiting his transplant, I also went through my own health/cancer scare, resulting in a biopsy and lumpectomy, but ultimately no cancer. I trust/and pray the same will be true for your wife. Hang in there.

    Linda, Wichita

  5. Thank you all for the nice words of encouragement. We remain optimistic. Of course we will go insane a little while we wait for Lois' results. We appreciate all your good thoughts.