For over a year now I have been waiting to get sick. I am often left frustrated when I find my MELD score hasn't moved at all when I get my labs drawn. As I have said before, these numbers will ultimately determine my placement on The List.
Today (yesterday) I sent an e-mail to my transplant coordinator asking about a lab test they wanted done to check my kidney functions. I got an e-mail back telling me to just go get my labs drawn. So I did that. I received another e-mail in the evening telling me my kidneys functions were okay and that my MELD was at 13.
It seems odd that after so long things are beginning to change. Knowing that my numbers have started to move is almost too hard for me fathom after all this time. And even though they've only crept up a little; from an 11 to 13, it shows that something is starting to happen. Once again I find myself torn between two directions. A part of me wants to stay suspended, while another wants to go forward. But I guess I don't really have any control over that. I am still doing well for now. That counts for a lot.